Took Madeleine on a motorcycle ride today out toward the Cascades. We stopped along a beautiful river and took a few pictures.
Ajax passed away today, and I’m heartbroken. He has endured several weeks of extreme pain, enough for him to stop eating and lose over 10 pounds in a short time. I took him in to the vet this morning for an ultrasound, just to confirm the cancer that we suspected. Our drive was quiet. I think he was annoyed that I didn’t let him drink anything. He was very thirsty. They led him off to the backroom, and I went off to work.
The radiologist arrived in the afternoon and confirmed our suspicions. He had sizable growths over several organs. Dr. Cullen called and said she’d be around for another couple hours if I wanted to take care of it today. It seemed like the appropriate thing to do.
I found Ajax in Room #2, very excited and happy to see me. He was moving around the room with great agility, and I wondered about what we were about to do. Ajax seemed energetic and really like his old bouncy self from months ago, but it was just disguised anxiety and some excitement that I finally was going to take him home. Seeing this was tragic to me, especially as he backed himself over my feet and sat down as he often did, just to be close to me. Little did he know that he had just a few minutes of life left.
And this was my pain. I was directing this euthanasia, directing the doctor to administer barbiturates that would quickly kill him. Was it right? I again questioned the doctor who assured me that this was the right path considering the extent of the cancer and the pain that Ajax was going through each day. I just wanted to take him home one more day and appreciate his kind soul, to have him sit by my feet in the living room, to pet him as he slept on the office carpet.
Yesterday, in the backyard, as he lay in the grass and I lay in front of him, I snuggled my head under his chin and on his paws. He lowered his chin on my head with purposeful firmness, embracing me in the only way he could. It was sweet and affectionate. He knew I was distressed by his pain, too. These Berners are such an intelligent, kind breed of dog. Such a loss when they leave a family.
Nice job, Madeleine!
Flew to SLC for the weekend, picked up Andrew and Madeleine, then drove down to see my folks in LV. As we came back through Provo, we met up with Alex who was enjoying a break from Yale during the Thanksgiving holiday. We got together on our last morning for a photo in downtown Provo. Fun to be with them all.
Another reason why we love the Seattle area…
Sometimes when riding on my motorcycle, I come across a beautiful scene from the road that makes me pull to the side and stop. It takes some time to park the bike, get out my camera and capture the picture, but it’s always worth it. This shot was taken a few miles off the Strait of Juan de Fuca Highway in the Olympics. Not sure if I could ever find the place again, but it was worth the stop.
Heard a nice duet recently. This girl, Evie Clair, was recently on “America’s Got Talent”, and the young man has a tremendous voice, too.
For the last several years I’ve had the opportunity to be the photographer in the Santa Room at the Ward Christmas Party. My job is easy because this Santa definitely looks the part! I enjoy taking his picture along with all the boys and girls who come to tell him what gifts are on their minds.
I hope everyone has a very Merry Christmas!